今日誰の誕生日

俺の友達か？君の仲間？
僕。。。何も知らない
唯一つ抱け　解る
今日　僕の誕生日じゃない

my idealistic lifestyle

hmm.... let me think about it first... my idealistic lifestyle... ha~ I rather say it's make my room look more nicer~ as an "otaku"~ I'm thinking I'm going to make this happen by next year end...hmm...hope so... anyway I'm going to add a rectangle table next to my bed, I will put my laptop and speaker on top of it and maybe some other decoration or accessory. then I'm going to buy a new speaker to replace current speaker, although the current speaker is still usable but its sound system got few problem already...so I'm thinking getting a new one. lastly I want to get a mirror shelf to put my animation stuff. I'm thinking as if it can fit beside the table or not...so I guess I better to take a measure about the length of those things. Lastly, some celebration decoration such as Christmas tree (size that can fit inside room) or others stuff...but i guess I will reconsider it as a follow up~ my prior is the first two things. so I will redecorate my room by next year~ hope so I can accomplish those things I plan.

now~I will work hard on both working and saving to accomplish my ideal room~

last minute decision

to be honest, I wonder why I chose the title "last minute decision" but, maybe, just kind of feel.

lately I felt really tired, working day after days, just for living as a living form. although it's tired but I kind of enjoy the progress I had made. in order to make it more interesting, I will give all the best I can. be tired and sleep, a day and another, keep passing on, until I have forgot what youth is all about ha...

I might felt guilty toward someone I had said I love her, but maybe not, because she never tell me how she feel about me with her heart content. so, I have no idea how to move on with her. now, when I think about it, I felt I had make a wrong decision of confess my love to her. maybe it's last minute decision maybe not, but it's a suicide decision make us awkward even now we have not meet or call each other.

sigh...life is tough to live on with a wrong decision, although it's a small issue of the social, but it may lead every individual to be optimistic about everything and a warmth family.