纯粹的问候

好久好久没有再说任何东西了。。。妹？过的好吗？考试考得好吗？没有跟枫吵架了吧？有多久我们没见面了啊？最后一次见面是你唱歌比赛的那天是吧（我没记错的话）跟Johnson一起去听。你跟你的朋友唱《分手快乐》是吧（我又没记错的话）然后就回家去了。那天什么都没跟你聊到，只有在你和枫面前呆呆的看着你们。我猜想我们那天只聊几句都不到吧~可能真的没什么话题，而且已经毕业了，看到自己母校的学生，感觉怪怪的，而且还蛮尴尬的。。。你应该就快假期了吧？我跟一般朋友可能会在十一月或十二月去云顶玩，圣诞节也不例外~你呢？希望你的假期也过得很充实，妹~这样开心的过假期就好~就这样，掰咯~

to something i have lost forever

things i have lost,it will not refundable
things i have gain,i will not let it go


the real me isn't what u think it is
the real me will not show if u don't know who i am


i am a person who is full of hatred
but i cover my true self with a smile


the reason of it there is a reason behind it
the reason itself show that i am not a person who love to smile


i have no expression no kindness
nobody really understand why am i like this


no matter what i am still who i am
no matter what i gain or lost i will not regret


although it is painful in the heart itself
although i will not care as my face shown


actually i won't show my true self except u are my trustful one


to be the one i trust the most
must understand all about me


about my past about my present about the future with me
i am already tired of these pain and didn't understand


but i have to get used of it
i have a long way to go


either with my own self
either with my trustful one


the two used to be my trustful one
but they didn't understand my painful and tiredness when i am facing them with my smile


trust from them and me for them
i don't know it can still last for how long


the moment we share the moment we smile together
it is the most truly moment i have with you and my very own


that moment only make the true me disappear and reborn to a new me that i want me to be that kind of person forever forever and forever


the real me a cruel a heartless a person that full of hared toward everything around me defensive against everyone around me to not to be hurt by anyone and not to hurt anyone that is one kind of mine in my true self


who will understand me and make me completely change to a person i want to be, a kind a friendly a person who is full of love toward everyone i hope the person will come to be one day.


something i have lost sure will one day will be back to me i am sorry upon things i have done it wrongly i apologize to you two forgiveness from you both i won't dare to ask from you both but if you both do so i will not do it anymore in my life time


trust or to be trusted
who will be the first of it


*i am not perfect so as all of us try to be perfect is useless, to be natural is the best choice i think but i haven't choose it because now i am another me a person with two attitude a twin effect of a person so am i Alan*

to be trusted and to be loved

the one i know
the one who know me

the one i need
the one who need me

the one i precious
the one who precious me

the one i love
the one who love me

the one i trust
the one who trust me

only the one that really work on me
only the one that really make me work

the love i found from the one
the love that the one found from me

we will share our bond
we will share our soul

to be trusted
to be loved

eternally in the world
everlasting in the universal

so...will we all meet the one that we desperately want to meet in our live, in our surrounding, in front of our bare eyes...the question leave unknown, but to solve the unknown we will have to start our journey,with our hands our will our heart our desire to love and to be loved~


the end of the story...

妹~你的朋友

不错嘛~你闷的时候还有那么多朋友陪伴你~~妹，你真的很幸福~你知道吗^^
原本看了你那里的post，想写一些话的，不过里面只有你认识哥我，我想也不好意思插一脚吧~~
不过在你闷的时候，最重要是记得你的枫~他一定很愿意空出时间陪你的~~
最近我的歌多的听不完了~~如果有机会的话，哥放里面好听的歌进去pendrive给你~好吗？~
嗯~~~~~~~~就酱咯~有机会就给你^^

如果

如果...“如果”这两个字真的很碍眼，它让人们失去平衡，让人不再相信，让人不再期待。因为一切语言里，出现了“如果”。“如果我说...”已经变成人们的家常便饭了，为的只是保护自己、为了维持关系、为了不让对方知道秘密、为了隐藏真相、为了自己也为了每一个她或他。如果没有你，我会活不下去、如果没有认识你，我们不需要勉强自己、如果我得了绝症，我要你不要哭、如果你还爱着他，那你就回去他的身边吧、如果...如果我爱上了你，你会怎样对待我...等的一切的“如果”



如果我说这一切都只是开始
你会愿意陪着我走吗
如果我说这一切都是个谎言
你会变聪敏离开我吗
如果我说这一切都是为了你
你会感动得留下来吗
如果我说这一切是因你发生
你会感到一丝歉意吗
如果我说这一切只是个如果
你会有什么反应的吗
“如果我说...”一切都是如果我说...如果真的实现了..如果我还会笨的可以忽视它，那我真的是世界上最笨的笨蛋白痴了，可是（ ）永远都不知道...所以是没有可能的事~~




我有浪漫背景的思想，但是也有悲伤背景的联想

浪漫里含有悲伤的剧情
悲哀里带有浪漫的气息
爱情里有喜有悲才叫爱

痛过哭过笑过才能体会爱情里所有的真实所有感觉