什么样的感觉

星期四晚上在振枫家住了一晚
还好啦
也很好玩
只是
。。。
好像有点说不出的感觉
有点疼痛
隐藏在笑声中
有点寒冷
隐藏在我心中
有点冲动
隐藏在我手掌
有点无力
隐藏在我体内
有点
。。。
就只是有点
不知道是为什么
希望
真的能解决这个复杂的念头
忘记
毁掉
对你的牵挂
对你的笑容
在我心里
我想一点一点
一滴一滴的
毁掉你给我的回忆
我
。。。
不想再这么的难过了
imoto
我
。。。
真的不想
。。。
你
。。
快点毁了我吧
。。
我
。。。
我求求你
。。。

something seem so far fro me

剪了一头短发、还染了颜色~其实也不错xD
其实剪不剪多是一样-，-| |
其实我是指我的个性还是一样
沉默、笨笨的、傻傻的、爱戴面具、每天都站在原点、兜来兜去，还是回来了
好希望真的有一天我就这样的逝去
这样就不用那么烦了，虽然是自己拿来烦的
但是我也不想，只是情不自禁的去想、去插一脚、去三八
却带来自己承受不了的伤害，却逞强的说我不会被伤害的
哈...有够傻的
天下有哪个人是不怕被感情伤害的人啊？！
傻啊！！~ ~ 真的有够傻瓜
自作自受
自讨苦吃
自食其果
唉...还是算了，也许是命运也说不定呢...？

day of days

every day just keep on going through but I'm doing nothing special to you but I knew you too did the same thing on me...isn't it?
sadness of my life I couldn't describe it by any words...but I'm doing thing that another me would happier than I am~
when I see people face fill with happiness I feel relief and relax in the atmosphere of love although I'm not include in the loving stuff but I still feel the same way.
tired of being nice to everyone feel like to torn apart the another me and we both lead 2 different life, 1 is happiness life 1 is sorrow life, full of colour another full of darkness
I shall stop writing here...feel like wan to sleep the whole day and let the day just pass through

以前以前的事

看会以前跟你聊天的MSN，那些对话虽然有点久了但还是很记得一幕一幕の画面
以前以前
喜欢上你我没有后悔过，虽然时常很想哭但是还是算了
我也不需要隐瞒我的情绪
想哭就哭
不需逞强
My reflection have shown who I'm
镜子里的我已经显示真正的我
I'm weak and I wan people to support me
我很脆弱我需要有人支撑我
but I couldn't find the person who can support me
可是我找不到可以支撑我的那个人
so I decide to stay alone in this world
所以我决定自己孤单一人留在这世界

...

the world isn't end yet still I felt it's like the world end
coldest night without anyone company me the night
what make you made the cruelest decision to leave me alone
how do I live without your night
how do I live without your voice
how do I
please tell me how...


if I really have hurt u
please forgive me my love
no matter what happen maybe every second it will make me weaker
please hold me and never leave me alone
forgive me I leave you alone in the past
just to be another me to be shine
but the past I never know your feelings
now
I'm going to show you the shape of my heart
the heart of loving you deep


years have past every days every minutes every seconds without your night
the distance that separate us far
but
nothing's gonna change my for you
send my feeling to you
tell you how much I love you


hopeless night hopeless days
but an angle just appear in my life
you the angel
live in my life let me see the hope that you gave me everyday
thank you because you live
because you believe in me
I'll survive everyday just for you


hey the another me
hi the real me
looking the mirror I saw the another me inside the mirror
but
it seem I have lost the real me
always pretend be another person who is not me
my reflection
when will you show the real me
or just pretend till end of my life


to good to be start
to say to be end
hey
are you just doing thing as I'm doing right now
imagine I'm starring at the starry night
laying on the tender grass field
soft wind blow and make my hair messy
but i just don't care and just have my peaceful scene
yes I've promise you
this I promise you
bring you to the place that this peaceful

a day for songs

I find back those old song that I like long ago before I knew how to use internet and yet now I knew and I found it~nice old English song~


1st I found is

~If I had to live my life without you near me~
~The days would be empty~
~The nights would seem so long~
~With you I see forever oh so clearly~
~I might have been in love before~
~But it never felt this strong~
~Our dreams are young and we both know~
~They'll take us where we want to go~
~Hold me now~
~Touch me now~
~I don't want to live without you~


~Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You~
~You ought to know by now how much I love you~
~One thing you can be sure of~
~I never ask for more than your love~

~Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You~
~You ought to know by now how much I love you~
~The world may change my whole life through~
~But Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You~


2nd song is

~Hmm,yeah,yeah~
~Baby, please try to forgive me~
~Stay here don't put out the glow~
~Hold me now don't bother~
~If every minute it make me weaker~
~You can save me from the man that I've become~

~Oh yeah~

~Lookin' back on the things I've done~
~I was tryin' to be someone~
~I played my part, kept you in the dark~
~Now let me show you The Shape Of My Heart~


Quite nice isn't it~~let's move to the next

~My life is brilliant~

~My life is brilliant~
~My life is pure~
~I saw an angel~
~Of that I'm sure~
~She smiled at me on the subway~
~She was with another man~
~But I won't lose no sleep on that~
~Cause I've got a plan~

~You're Beautiful~You're Beautiful~
~You're Beautiful is true~
~I saw your face in a crowded place~
~And I don't know what to do~
~Cause I'll never be with you~


Flyin in the song~~I few freedom and glad to know an angel in my life~~moving on

~I lie awake at night~
~See things in black and white~
~I've only got you inside my mind~
~You know you have make me blind~

~I lie awake and pray~
~That you will look my way~
~I have all this longing in my heart~
~I knew it right from the start~


~Oh my Pretty~Pretty Boy I love you~
~Like I never ever loved no one before you~
~Pretty~Pretty Boy of mine~
~Just tell me you love me too~

~Oh my Pretty~Pretty Boy I need you~
~Oh my Pretty~Pretty Boy I do~
~Let me inside~
~Make me stay right beside you~


And the last song i found~~

~Every time we say goodbye~
~There's something breaking deep inside~
~I tried to hide feelings to keep myself controlled~
~But somehow I can't deny what's deep inside my soul~

~I've been always on the run~
~So many different places, having fun~
~But like a river always knows just where to flow~
~Now that December comes I feel like coming home~


~It's Christmas In My Heart~
~When I'm with you~
~No matter where we are or what we do~

~Tomorrow may be grey~
~We may be torn apart~
~But if you stay tonight~
~It's Christmas In My Heart~


That's all I found~~I loved~~I hope a nice song will calm my mind~~

a new year 2011

已经又一年了~新的一年大家都在想着改变，但是我只想站在原点~~因为这是我、就是我
好久没有碰你了部落格~~有些怀念以前的生活，一直希望时间可以停留在过去的幸福时光
新年我也没什么新的愿望，只希望自己身边的人可以很幸福的度过这一年，而自己也满足了


快乐时光总是过得特别快，但也回来得很迅速，因为有知己、有朋友、有情人，难过的时候有他们的陪伴与安慰
傻妹~家人~朋友~知己，祝你们有个幸福、健康、快乐、美满的一年，当然自己也不例外啦~~~
希望你已经原谅我了...希望有回那已经快要在我脑海里失去的声音了..可以回来吗~~